waste of time

What’s the definition of waste of time?

It maybe spending too much time watching tv... or sleep too much, or not doing anything productive with an outcome... everyone may have different definition for “waste of time”... thus, sometimes what I do may be regarded as waste of time to another person... LOL

Well, recently I have a universal meaning for waste of time... why do i say this? Just in April, we were forced to have a new boss... and my new boss is just a big egoist who thinks he is the best in the world... who is the busiest, who is the most hardworking, the most intelligent person of all... but deep down, I know he is insecure... that’s why he likes to make people feel inferior.. yes, I admit he is smart because he can talk... and he boosted about his past success to me since 9 years ago... you wouldn’t believe I’m still listening as of today!

I appreciate the way he tried to make me feel useless and do his job and yet telling me my job can be done by a junior person and wants to cut my salary... all I wanna say is... he could have asked me to do more important things rather than sitting behind my desk to help him double check and triple check things for him before he approves anything... so in a way, im doing his job for him but I’m not paid at his salary level...

So now, I’m spending most time doing things that don’t belong to me.. thinfs wihtout outcome and things I cannot put in my performance... so this makes me realized the meaning of “waste of time”!

To me, waste of time is Doing something that is not value added, not your job and effort not recognized. Despite all these, you cannot say no and yet still being told you are free.

Universal meaning?

我是不是老了

我觉得这个平台真的很像我的个人日子。刚刚看会以前写得文章，发现自己一直不断地改变。已经过了13年。记得当初我离乡背井的那一年是2005年。去了香港，上海，新加坡。。。每一个地方都教会了我不同的东西。

我读了一些2010年和2011年的文章。。。老实说，有些事情我还真的不记得曾经发生过。哈哈哈。我发现我还挺会苦中作乐的。记得刚去上海的头一年，我真的有想过回家中老米。只是自己不愿意放弃，才撑到今天。有时候还挺想念在香港和上海的日子。有时候甚至后悔为什么当初没有花时间好好了解那个地方。现在想要回去旅游的机会已经不多了。

我想念我的一些香港朋友。我还记得一开始他们听不懂我的广东话，却还是不嫌弃我。虽然有一段黑色日子，人啊，总是记得好的一面。

我以为我去了上海，被人事物追着跑而忘了感受。。。可是读了我以前的文章，我发现那时候的我反而更多感触。也许日子很苦，所以才会拼命想办法往好的方面想，和尽量做一些有趣的事情。其实除了上海的污染，食安问题，医院素质，基本上我还是挺喜欢那个地方。只是有时候我会犹豫我是否想再回到上海住。。。。因为上海离家里太远。我在新加坡可以随时随地回家。

在新加坡，我反而觉得我更加没有任何特别感觉。。。是不是我老了。。。所以懒得去发掘新加坡的好。。。其实，新加坡也教会了我一些东西。。。

我很感激我有这些经历。。。我很庆幸我在这个旅途中遇到很多好朋友。。。我很庆幸我有这个平台去记录我这么多年的点点滴滴。

are we twins?

Jennifer had two encounters on her occupation....well, it does not go so well for me lo... but i also have another lesson learnt to share with everyone...

so, when i first moved to Singapore, my colleagues are all curious about me... they just want to know more about me :p some of them who are married with kids envy me for being single...for being able to just go anywhere whenever i can without thinking about kids and hubby... well, i do have other commitments which they don't know of... but in comparison, i'm of coz more flexible than them...

then after being curios with my life, they are curious with the types of guys i like... so when we were chit chatting one day, someone asked me if i could accept my other half to be Indian....without thinking, i said "no".... the trouble then comes the night when i called uber/grab to go to the airport...

my flight was at midnight...so i took the car at around 10pm... the car came, it was a young indian guy...not thinking much, i got in...then the guy started to chat with me about this and that.... then he was also curious with what i do... i didnt really like to tell stranger too much about myself... so i just replied: "my job is very common"... something along that line..can't really remember. but he was still very persistent and kept guessing.... not wanting to reply so i asked him to guess... while driving, suddenly he turned his whole body back and looked at me and said: "i think you are a masseur"... he said with 100% confidence... upon hearing the answer, i almost fainted! Masseur?! which part do i look like a masseur?! because i look like a mainland chinese? sigh... then this person asked me for my number... it was 10 something pm at night and i was scared... i just told him i would give him later because he was driving...deep down, i was sweating and panicking...what should i say, what should i do? so, out of desperation, i said, “why don't you gimme your number since you are driving？” He did and i left in a hurry... before leaving, he asked me to message him about my trip... i said ok...and deep down, i was telling him... IN YOUR DREAM! buwahahaha... that was scary though.

then the other day, Jenn and i went to a nursery... while asking about this and that, the owner asked what jennifer works as... as our usual self, we don't like to share too many detail with strangers. Jenn asked him one question, he answered and jenn validated his answer by checking it... the guy exclaimed in joy and said:"i know, you must be from finance!" honestly, jenn and i were both a bit shocked as in why he could get it right just because of one action... perhaps he is lucky or perhaps he really could tell :p hhhmmmmm... then he asked me also but i didnt answer...

After that, we started to bargain with the owner... i don't know why, sometimes i just like to bargain for the sake of bargaining...but of coz it also depends on who the counterpart is... then after x mins, the guy finally gave in and said he would take the middle price... DEAL! out of the blue, this guy then told us about his precious collections... they are indeed very nice so i just blurted if he could sell to us... his answer was firm. NO! not giving up, i asked if he could lend us... then this guy said, you are definitely not in Finance...  hahaha...well...this time he is definitely wrong... im guessing he was lucky with Jennifer just now then... this is still an interesting remark though

你们有这样的想法吗

不知道是不是年纪大了的问题。。。以前很多人事物我们都不以为然。爸爸妈妈或年长的人给我们一些忠告，我们总是摇摇手，摇摇头的说没有这回事。或者看到有人生病或者什么的，我们也总是很敷衍的关心一下。

今天一早730am，我如往常一样走路去地铁站。。。前面远远看到一个女生跑步。。。那时候我忽然想，如果是以前的我，我会不以为意的觉得这就是一个人在跑步而已。可是今天的我非常敬佩这位女生。。。因为她可以那么早起床出来跑步。。。我却办不到。。。我敬佩他的毅力，他的努力。因为我自己做不到或者知道不容易执行，所以才会佩服她。

以前还没割到小指头的时候，路上经常会看见有人的手臂被包扎起来，或者脚被包扎起来。那时候也没什么想法。自从手指的事件过后，我发现看起来只是包扎而已，可是这些人必须经过的痛苦。。。忽然受伤的苦，等待治疗的苦，能不能好起来的苦，生活上照成不便的苦，照顾他的人应该也很困扰等等。。。所以很多事情不要觉得不以为然。。。

我觉得人就是这样，凡是没经历过的就不会在意。。。自己经历过了才知道有些事情看似简单可是不容易。。。我们永远都会觉得别人比我们幸福，却忽略了别人的付出。

这是我今天的体悟。。。不知道你们有这样的想法吗？