what have i done?

ooopps, i burnt my mum's pork leg soup when i was heating it up :( gosh, this is not the first time that i burnt food...in fact it was the 3rd time!!! OMG OMG...the first 2 times were in Shanghai....this time, it was my mum's cooking :( i felt bad for burning my mum's hard-cooked dish...i knew how hot the kitchen was, i knew how troublesome it was for her to buy the ingredient...i felt bad and started to reflect why this kept happening...when i started the gas, i told myself that i must remember to turn it off in 5 mins...but i didnt...and i know the root cause now...because after i turned on the gas, i went to my computer and forgot all abt it!! lessons learned!! i will not leave it unattended anymore...mum, please forgive me~~~

mum's organic veggie

mum's organic veggie... :) yummy....after being away from home for soOoooo long, i have learnt that home is still the best!!! mum loves to plant, i remember when i was young, mum has a mini farm...all she needed to do was pluck the veggie she wanna cook that day...fresh and no pesticide...after being in shanghai, i don't appreciate the nice looking veggie anymore...i preferred those with holes and even bugs!! that's how i know the veggie is good for you :) mum made a lot of home grown veggie dishes when i am home...thanks mum :) u r the best!!

pre-going home mood

i'm counting days now... 4 more days to home sweet home~~ well, i'm not sure if i should be happy that it's getting closer or if i should be sad that it is getting to finishing...life is always so difficult and has two sides...i was watching desperate housewives yesterday (yeah, im bored and i find it interesting :p), well, one episode particularly touched me....everyone knows how slutty eddie is, right? anyway, she died in this episode...before she died, everyone disliked her...and i have to admit, she did have a good body and very very sexy. that's my thought when looking at her...then in this episode, after she died, i just realized that life is really just an illusion, isnt it? one moment, i was admiring how pretty she was, how envy i was towards her body shapes, her life (coz she was always wearing nice dress and fitted in just perfect)...then one moment, she was gone (i know i took it seriously even though it was just a show)...but it struck me, isnt it the same in real life? we keep taking things for real when they don't really exist...money, fame, beauty, body shapes, belonging...they seem so important to us now, but when we die, we cant really take them with us, so why are we still hang on to these unreal things? the only reason i could think of is, we just have not realized they are not real...oh, seems a bit out of topic...hehehe... well, i also realized that life is painful no matter what...u feel painful before u go back to kuching (because u have this feeling inside wishing it could be here sooner, but still have to go through all those days before it's here)...then when the time comes, u worry that it's gonna be finished real soon and dreaded the end of the trip to come...i have a friend who shared his philosophy with us...he said, before the trip, just treat it as u have come back and u will be able to eliminate the hope and the depression before and after the trip.....hhmmm...something worth thinking...well, is it just me or what? wish to see u all soon~~

Going Home~~

It's been a LOoooong time since i last go back to Kuching...yes, i miss my bed (as if i still have it, jenn has occupied it for years!!), i miss my room (and it's also occupied by Jenn for years), i miss my parents (and they miss me too), i miss the food (and i graving for them, especially u-know-what - TEH C PENG, Laksa, BKT, Kolo mee, chicken rice, mum's home cooked food), and for sure, i miss my dear friends (not sure if they miss me)...haha... i couldnt remember the last time i went back to kuching...if my memory is correct, it should be last CNY? wow...that's pretty long ago...im sure all of u miss me sooOOooo much (>_<) After moving to shanghai last nov, this is the first time i go back to kuching from shanghai...what can i say? there's no budget airline, there's no direct flight...and flight is for sure longer and more expensive!!! sigh..what to do, i'm willing to sacrifice just for the abovementioned~~it will take me one whole day to fly~~~

well, this time, i will go back on May 13 (flight is at 10am, but i will only arrive KCH at 9pm)...taking leave just to take flight, so funny....oh well..cant complain...i just hope my flight will not be delayed...pray pray...so boys and girls, please get ready for my return and partay~~ hoo hoo