是不是真的？

最近跟阳阳在一起玩，发现小孩子真好。好容易满足。唯一的问题就是，不想去上学，什么时候可以玩，可以买玩具给我吗。。。这一类的问题。如果心情不好，只要哄一哄，又开始嘻嘻哈哈了。

那天看着他自己在小小游乐场玩耍，一个滑梯也可以玩得如此开心。我觉得他以后应该会是一个很容易跟人交朋友的小孩。

话说有一天，我妈妈说他在KFC玩耍吹冷气的时候，看到两个比较大的马来小男孩和马来小女孩在他们的位子上看iPhone。他开始好奇他们到底在看什么 （其实是自己也想看卡通！），后来他就跑去跟他们聊天交朋友。结果人家就跟他分享iPhone，3人一起看卡通。小孩们后来要回家了，还会跟他说 bye bye。。。。

过了几天，阳阳又在咖啡店看到有两个小孩在看iPhone, 他又跑去试图跟人家交朋友。结果，两个小孩忙着看自己的iPhone，根本没有理会他。后来他就回来跟我们说他们没有跟他玩。哈哈哈。好可爱。

小孩子的梦想其实很简单。就是有得吃有得玩就好了。看看下面的图。。。就是我小时候的心声。以前我很爱barbie doll， 可是那时候这个叫奢侈品。虽然爸爸妈妈每次买山寨版的回来给我们，我们还是一样开心。记得有一次，爸爸为了奖励我们，带我们去 KMC 游泳，然后带我们去河婆大夏唯一的KFC吃鸡腿。。。然后再给我买了一个正宗 Barbie Doll。那时候我太开心了。后来我跟爸爸说，我以后长大了，要买很多很多很多的 Barbie Doll。梦想就是家里有满满各式各样的 Barbie Doll。那时候光想着就觉得很开心了。

我猜阳阳当时的心情应该也是这样。我姐姐不太给他吃这些有的没的。他那几天有吵着要吃冰淇淋。后来有买一个小小的给他。那天我们在路上走走。。。忽然远远看到有一个冰淇淋。他很兴奋的跑到冰淇淋面前。。。摸摸它，看看它。。。哇，真的好大好大。因为他的个子很小，根本吃不到，就一直踮脚。哈哈哈。后来干脆把舌头伸出来吃冰淇淋。这个无比巨大的冰淇淋估计就是他的梦想了。好像在童话故事里耶。

有时候希望可以回到小时候。有时候又庆幸自己不是小孩了。不然又要重新经历一切。。。读书，考试，朋友的压力，失败的经历等等。。。。也许，我们的心应该保有一点童真幻想才能让自己过得快乐一点吧~~~

说故事篇

侄子这个月在古晋过暑假。他回来家里和乐融融。。。果然家里有小孩，爸爸妈妈都会开心一点。呵呵。当然也有让人不能忍受的时候。不过侄子真的很可爱，好会讲话。处处不得罪人。小小年纪就嘴巴这么甜。真希望他不要那么快长大。他很黏婆婆

以前其他住在澳洲的侄子侄女们也是这样可爱，可是长大了就跟我们很陌生了。还是好好珍惜现在。法国侄子真的很可爱。听他说话，所有烦恼真的会像云烟一样消失。呵呵。

我很喜欢跟小孩子玩。也许我还是很幼稚，所以很容易跟小孩子打成一片。。。以前我有想过自己弄个托儿所。。由于友人说现在父母亲不好搞，加上自己不坚定，所以才错过良机。现在每次看到古晋又有新的托儿所或幼稚园，真的后悔当初没有坚持。唉~

跟小孩在一次，我发现平常死脑筋的我还是可以蛮有创意的耶。那天小侄子在储藏室找到去年我们买个他的鼓。后来就一直敲打。刚好那天天气也不是很好，开始打雷和下雨。。。刚好那天我们在外面吃饭。我觉得小孩子吃饭时间应该是大人最头痛的时刻。为了逗侄子吃饭，我们真的千方百计想了一堆方法。那天，为了让他吃饭，我想说用讲故事的方式让他吃饭。我就说：“oh no~~~ 天上在打鼓了。” 他眼睛张很大，好像认同是天上打鼓。开始紧张了。我就说，“天上打鼓就是说要下雨咯。要小雨就不能出去玩咯。”

刚好是傍晚时间，所以天是橘色的。后来我就延续我的故事就说。。。“哦，你看你看，天上有火，所以孙悟空（小侄子的偶像之一）打鼓，叫人来救火咯。” 小侄子开始紧张和开始说故事，看到他可爱的样子，让大家开心得不得了。

有时候我觉得我还蛮有创意的。呵呵呵。。。自我感觉良好。。。我觉得我本来就是个简单的人。喜欢过简单的生活，做人处事也喜欢简单。所以我很喜欢跟小孩子说话。因为他们没有任何心机，也把他们最真实的一面表现出来。看到小侄子喜欢我说的故事，我心里也很开心。

记得有一次，我姐姐忽然打了视频给我，叫我跟小侄子说故事。哇，这是什么即兴节目。得立刻马上想故事。后来，我就说了一个 Spiderman 的故事。因为小侄子也迷 Spiderman。我说：“有一天~~~ 有一个小孩子~~~~ 要到森林里面去玩~~~~ 他的妈妈说不可以~~~~因为很危险~~~~ 可是他不听~~~~就自己去森林玩~~~~ 他走进去。。。再进去。。。再进去~~~  oh oh。。。。惨了，他迷路了。。。不知道怎样出来。。。小孩子开始害怕料。。。因为天越来越暗。。。听到很多动物的声音。。。oh oh。。。是不是有老虎？有狮子？ 他哭着叫妈妈。。。。因为他走得太远，妈妈听不见他的叫声，所以没来救他。后来小孩子一直哭一直哭一直哭。。。。怎么办叻？ 后来 Spiderman 出现了。出来救小孩子。Spiderman跟小孩子说，以后不能不听妈妈的话，自己跑到森林去玩。因为很危险。。。然后 Spiderman 就把小孩子带回妈妈的身边。后来小孩子跟妈妈说以后他会听妈妈的话。” 这样烂的故事，我的小侄子也听的很起劲。。呵呵。。。 Thats why i love kids! 哈哈，感觉好像很崇拜我似的 ：p

七月半

昨天是七月半。。。传说中的地狱门开，所有的 人'ed （past tense）都被放出来“旅游”。 以前小时候最害怕七月半的了。因为想到有看不到的人跟我们在一起，自己用想象力来想他们的样貌就害怕。。。自己吓自己。

那天在开车，看到这个情景。幸好那时候开车的我是白天，而且也不是什么7月半。不然还真的会吓死人。哈哈哈。

waste of time

What’s the definition of waste of time?

It maybe spending too much time watching tv... or sleep too much, or not doing anything productive with an outcome... everyone may have different definition for “waste of time”... thus, sometimes what I do may be regarded as waste of time to another person... LOL

Well, recently I have a universal meaning for waste of time... why do i say this? Just in April, we were forced to have a new boss... and my new boss is just a big egoist who thinks he is the best in the world... who is the busiest, who is the most hardworking, the most intelligent person of all... but deep down, I know he is insecure... that’s why he likes to make people feel inferior.. yes, I admit he is smart because he can talk... and he boosted about his past success to me since 9 years ago... you wouldn’t believe I’m still listening as of today!

I appreciate the way he tried to make me feel useless and do his job and yet telling me my job can be done by a junior person and wants to cut my salary... all I wanna say is... he could have asked me to do more important things rather than sitting behind my desk to help him double check and triple check things for him before he approves anything... so in a way, im doing his job for him but I’m not paid at his salary level...

So now, I’m spending most time doing things that don’t belong to me.. thinfs wihtout outcome and things I cannot put in my performance... so this makes me realized the meaning of “waste of time”!

To me, waste of time is Doing something that is not value added, not your job and effort not recognized. Despite all these, you cannot say no and yet still being told you are free.

Universal meaning?

我是不是老了

我觉得这个平台真的很像我的个人日子。刚刚看会以前写得文章，发现自己一直不断地改变。已经过了13年。记得当初我离乡背井的那一年是2005年。去了香港，上海，新加坡。。。每一个地方都教会了我不同的东西。

我读了一些2010年和2011年的文章。。。老实说，有些事情我还真的不记得曾经发生过。哈哈哈。我发现我还挺会苦中作乐的。记得刚去上海的头一年，我真的有想过回家中老米。只是自己不愿意放弃，才撑到今天。有时候还挺想念在香港和上海的日子。有时候甚至后悔为什么当初没有花时间好好了解那个地方。现在想要回去旅游的机会已经不多了。

我想念我的一些香港朋友。我还记得一开始他们听不懂我的广东话，却还是不嫌弃我。虽然有一段黑色日子，人啊，总是记得好的一面。

我以为我去了上海，被人事物追着跑而忘了感受。。。可是读了我以前的文章，我发现那时候的我反而更多感触。也许日子很苦，所以才会拼命想办法往好的方面想，和尽量做一些有趣的事情。其实除了上海的污染，食安问题，医院素质，基本上我还是挺喜欢那个地方。只是有时候我会犹豫我是否想再回到上海住。。。。因为上海离家里太远。我在新加坡可以随时随地回家。

在新加坡，我反而觉得我更加没有任何特别感觉。。。是不是我老了。。。所以懒得去发掘新加坡的好。。。其实，新加坡也教会了我一些东西。。。

我很感激我有这些经历。。。我很庆幸我在这个旅途中遇到很多好朋友。。。我很庆幸我有这个平台去记录我这么多年的点点滴滴。

are we twins?

Jennifer had two encounters on her occupation....well, it does not go so well for me lo... but i also have another lesson learnt to share with everyone...

so, when i first moved to Singapore, my colleagues are all curious about me... they just want to know more about me :p some of them who are married with kids envy me for being single...for being able to just go anywhere whenever i can without thinking about kids and hubby... well, i do have other commitments which they don't know of... but in comparison, i'm of coz more flexible than them...

then after being curios with my life, they are curious with the types of guys i like... so when we were chit chatting one day, someone asked me if i could accept my other half to be Indian....without thinking, i said "no".... the trouble then comes the night when i called uber/grab to go to the airport...

my flight was at midnight...so i took the car at around 10pm... the car came, it was a young indian guy...not thinking much, i got in...then the guy started to chat with me about this and that.... then he was also curious with what i do... i didnt really like to tell stranger too much about myself... so i just replied: "my job is very common"... something along that line..can't really remember. but he was still very persistent and kept guessing.... not wanting to reply so i asked him to guess... while driving, suddenly he turned his whole body back and looked at me and said: "i think you are a masseur"... he said with 100% confidence... upon hearing the answer, i almost fainted! Masseur?! which part do i look like a masseur?! because i look like a mainland chinese? sigh... then this person asked me for my number... it was 10 something pm at night and i was scared... i just told him i would give him later because he was driving...deep down, i was sweating and panicking...what should i say, what should i do? so, out of desperation, i said, “why don't you gimme your number since you are driving？” He did and i left in a hurry... before leaving, he asked me to message him about my trip... i said ok...and deep down, i was telling him... IN YOUR DREAM! buwahahaha... that was scary though.

then the other day, Jenn and i went to a nursery... while asking about this and that, the owner asked what jennifer works as... as our usual self, we don't like to share too many detail with strangers. Jenn asked him one question, he answered and jenn validated his answer by checking it... the guy exclaimed in joy and said:"i know, you must be from finance!" honestly, jenn and i were both a bit shocked as in why he could get it right just because of one action... perhaps he is lucky or perhaps he really could tell :p hhhmmmmm... then he asked me also but i didnt answer...

After that, we started to bargain with the owner... i don't know why, sometimes i just like to bargain for the sake of bargaining...but of coz it also depends on who the counterpart is... then after x mins, the guy finally gave in and said he would take the middle price... DEAL! out of the blue, this guy then told us about his precious collections... they are indeed very nice so i just blurted if he could sell to us... his answer was firm. NO! not giving up, i asked if he could lend us... then this guy said, you are definitely not in Finance...  hahaha...well...this time he is definitely wrong... im guessing he was lucky with Jennifer just now then... this is still an interesting remark though

你们有这样的想法吗

不知道是不是年纪大了的问题。。。以前很多人事物我们都不以为然。爸爸妈妈或年长的人给我们一些忠告，我们总是摇摇手，摇摇头的说没有这回事。或者看到有人生病或者什么的，我们也总是很敷衍的关心一下。

今天一早730am，我如往常一样走路去地铁站。。。前面远远看到一个女生跑步。。。那时候我忽然想，如果是以前的我，我会不以为意的觉得这就是一个人在跑步而已。可是今天的我非常敬佩这位女生。。。因为她可以那么早起床出来跑步。。。我却办不到。。。我敬佩他的毅力，他的努力。因为我自己做不到或者知道不容易执行，所以才会佩服她。

以前还没割到小指头的时候，路上经常会看见有人的手臂被包扎起来，或者脚被包扎起来。那时候也没什么想法。自从手指的事件过后，我发现看起来只是包扎而已，可是这些人必须经过的痛苦。。。忽然受伤的苦，等待治疗的苦，能不能好起来的苦，生活上照成不便的苦，照顾他的人应该也很困扰等等。。。所以很多事情不要觉得不以为然。。。

我觉得人就是这样，凡是没经历过的就不会在意。。。自己经历过了才知道有些事情看似简单可是不容易。。。我们永远都会觉得别人比我们幸福，却忽略了别人的付出。

这是我今天的体悟。。。不知道你们有这样的想法吗？